For you up there

I start thinking about you lately again
Without any sorrow, disappointment, grief and deep regret
But with the feeling of understanding and being surrender
of the destiny which never could be avoided by both of us
I would be with you if possible
But it was just never happened but a short moment
Something bigger than us took you away from me
Likewise life keeps me away from you
And I give up on you, I surrender to my fate
I am willing to accept it now
That we will never meet again
Not by any change
Not in this temporary life, not even later in the eternity
I let you go and fly now
To your kind of happiness that I still believe in
To your life without me
I love you still as you know I do
just as much as I believe that you love me always
Different kind of love of course
Love which never means to possess
Love which means to let go
Love which means just to hope somebody you love is happy in his serenity
Even without yourself in the part of this
I feel the wound still nevertheless
The wound which I gained at the time He took you from me
I just hope one day it would be healed.
It has to be healed someday anyway
In one way or another
I just hope you don’t have it with you
I accept to be here in this life and live
Without any wishes to run away from it anymore
I accept my fate as it is now


July, 2005